Overcoming my fears
Time to head to the Ozark mountains! Well, almost...I'm actually leaving tomorrow!! But, my bags are all packed and I'm ready to go! I think, I hope? You know how it is, that fear that you will leave something of importance behind. Even if I do, there is a Walmart only about 35 minutes away from where I'll be. Yet that fear is still there, nagging at me in the back of my head.
I would be lying if I said I have no fear about going away from my home for a month. Away from my normal daily routine (I turned 65 years old this month, and I am used to doing things my way, lol) . Away from my other children and grandchildren. Away from the safety of knowing I can walk out into my back yard and not happen upon a poisonous snake or a huge tarantula!! Two of the creatures that I fear the most are snakes and spiders. In that order. I do think I mentioned this before, in my article I'm heading back to the Ozarks! You can read all about it there.
Then, there's the fear of...what if SHTF while I'm gone??? My daughter, grandson, and I are a team! We have done all of our prepping together as a team. Including plans of what to do and where to go. Plans A, B, and C. Even though she has assured me that they will be just fine if anything does happen, I'm still worried. After all, I'm an integral part of the team! Even though I know they could handle things, I still worry.
When I first decided to take this adventure, I had all of the above fears hit me at once. I was certainly excited about going, but my fears had me doubting if it was a good decision. Especially the last two fears I mentioned. There were times that I was almost overcome with those fears. So, what did I do about it? How did I handle the fears? I prayed.
I asked God to guide me and direct me in my decision concerning whether or not I should go. I told God that I wanted to do His will and not my own. I asked Him that if it was His will for me to go visit my son that He would take away all of the fears I had about going. And you know what? Slowly, but surely, He began taking those fears away from me. Even when my son was goating me by posting on Facebook, with a picture, about the copperhead snake he had shot and killed! (LOL, he's probably reading this 😉.) God reassured me that He is with me and He will never leave me or forsake me (Hebrews 13:5 and Deuteronomy 31:8). And, guess what? Prayer truly does work!
Today, I am at complete peace about going on this new adventure and spending time with my son. I asked God and He responded. There were times when I was tempted to take those fears back, but each time that happened, God reminded me that it was in His Hands. Some people say that believing in God is just a "crutch". Well, you know what? I'm okay with that. Because sometimes, more often than not, I need a crutch. I am a broken human being and that "crutch" helps me to be whole.
So, I will be leaving tomorrow. And, not only will I enjoy visiting with my son and his family, but I will be able to practice and expand upon my survival skills. It will be a much needed "vacation" for me, away from the every day rut that has become my life. It will also be a time to prepare myself for what is yet to come in this world that we live in.
What fears are you harboring today? Whatever they are, I pray that you will turn them over to God. God does not want us to have unhealthy fears, but His enemy does! And that enemy will fight hard to bring you back into a place of fear. Just like he has done with me over this new adventure. Don't let the enemy win the battle. Living with peace of mind is so much better than living in fear. Give it to God and let Him take on the battle for you. He is the Victor!!
Until next time...happy prepping, and God bless!
2 Timothy 1:7 For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power,
and of love, and of a sound mind. (KJV)